Some would say that I am aloof, intimidating, unemotional, even unapproachable. That's the me that they see. Only He sees the real me, the me that no one else takes the time to discover. He sees me as I truly am, without pretense, without the walls of protection around me that I have built to keep others out. The light of His Presence reveals who I am. I am not aloof, intimidating, unemotional or unapproachable, I am shy. I am afraid of being vulnerable, afraid of being hurt. But all of my secrets are laid bare before the Lover of my Soul, every hurt, every hang up, every failure...and I don't have to be afraid because He loves me just the way I am. His unfailing, unrelenting love urges me on to be everything that I should be, everything that He tells me I am. (1 Peter 2:9 says "But you are a chosen people, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, a people belonging to God, that you may declare the praises of him who called you out of darkness into His wonderful light") Slowly but surely, He, God, Jesus Christ, is breaking down every wall and teaching me that I have to open up that I have to be vulnerable in order for Him to use me for His purposes. Yes, I risk getting hurt but He is the Great Physician and He will heal every wound. One year ago, I was a cold and hard-hearted person but now, today, I can pour out my heart to my Saviour, I can weep before Him, I can laugh with Him, I can feel at rest in His presence and let myself love Him with everything that is within me. Maybe you are like me, maybe you just can't seem to let Him in...the answer is in...brokeness, complete brokeness. (Psalm 51:17 says "The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit; a broken and contrite heart, O God, you will not despise") So allow Him to break you. It's only then that He can put you back together and turn you into a beautiful MASTERpiece, a beautiful work of art, the person He intended you to be before the world began. Allow God to mold you and make you what He wants you to be, love Him with your WHOLE heart, allow His Spirit to transform you and renew your mind, concentrate on pleasing Him and Him alone. It's only then that you can be comfortable with who you are and not feel pressured to please everyone else. I remember this one time I was having a really rough day...I felt like I was not going to change but God spoke to me very clearly and He said "When I look at you, I do not see you as you are. I see the righteousness of my Son placed before you" . So open up, take the risk, God will not let you down...because even if others hurt you...Jesus is the Great Physician and He will heal every wound. Walk in His light, allow Him to show you who you are because who He says you are is the truth. Colossians 3:12 says we are "dearly" loved by God so allow Him to shower that love on you. May the Lord bless you and keep you...with love ~ Daughter of the King, until next time :)
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